Archive for September, 2010

Random Thoughts

I’m sitting on my front porch enjoying the wonderful breeze we have this morning and thought I’d post a few random notes to get my mind flowing. It’s just too beautiful of a day to sit inside. Here goes:

– I’m still working on my sermon for tomorrow & I’m not at all surprised. I’m preaching at Peachtree Baptist Church in the morning and I’m so excited to see old friends. I’m excited to be leading in worship in this way. The Spirit’s been working with me on this sermon for weeks now but I’m having trouble getting it all down.
– Why? Well, several reasons. I think it has to do with the fact that it’s the last “preaching” job I have until my son arrives. I have savored the opportunities to preach at FBC Auburn & Highland Hills here in Macon.
– It’s also the reality that my vocation is changing once again. I have said that I will wait to meet my son, find out his personality, gauge my own sense of self before making the decision about work next year. On one hand, I’m extremely grateful that I don’t have to work. On the other hand, I love what I do and know I will miss it dearly.
– I’m 32 weeks and that means I have 8 weeks to go until my due date. I’ll see the doctor again in two weeks and that’s exciting. I’m feeling more tired and having trouble getting motivated to get housework done (I don’t enjoy it to begin with). But, besides the occasional back aches, I’m feeling pretty good.
– I love feeling him move, even if he wakes me up during the middle of the night. Seriously, I’m grateful for knowing he’s moving around and growing.
– Yesterday my Pa would have been 83 years old. I still feel like we got robbed from enjoying years with him. I still hate pancreatic cancer with a vengeance. I know how much he would have loved being a great-grandfather. I think about Gran & Papaw too. They would have been over the moon. We’re working on a piece of Gran’s furniture that will be the changing table. I can’t wait to have it finished and show it off. It’s like a piece of her will be in his room.
– It’s been a heck of a year and it’s not over yet. I still can’t believe I started this pregnancy journey in California. In many ways it feels like forever ago. I can’t believe we’ve been living here 2 months. The transition is not over. Prayers appreciated for Barry is feverishly studying for his board exams which happen about two weeks after my due date!

I told you it was random. There’s a lot going on around here. I’m trying to live into each moment, pay attention to my grief, meditate through my anxiety, and remember to be joy-filled. May you take a few moments and pay attention to the random thoughts running through your head today too. (while sitting on the porch, if I may recommend so)


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